Friday, July 3, 2009

Evening Primrose Oil-- A Woman's Best Friend

It took me nearly five years to realize, as well as my doctors, that I've entered perimenopause. I mean, I've had bouts with depression, gained wait, had night sweats, and the final breaking point--anxiety. Anxiety did it. I had to find out what the heck was going on with me and I did. I've been taking evening primrose oil, soy, and a phyto-estrogen supplement from Whole Foods to help me. They have worked and provided oh so much relief!

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Father's Day

You know, I couldn't find a good Father's Day card for my father this year. I found one from the kids, but couldn't find one with an adequate representation of my feelings or our relationship for that matter. My father always gets me and Hasana these really beautiful blank cards for our birthdays. I looked for a blank card but couldn't find one. My father and I are cool. Strange description for a father daughter relationship, but it's the best way to describe it. He's a unique person who's managed to basically live life as he saw fit. I do admire--and in a way envy--him for doing so. But the costs, wow the costs....

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Light Deficiency or Perimenopause

I mean it when I say, not having sunlight really affects me. It affected me even more before I began taking my Evening Primrose Oil---part of my perimenopausal cocktail. Yes, I said perimenopause. I was going through it: night sweats, anxiety, serious weight gain, I had it all. But I've found a cocktail that has been working. I haven't perfected it yet, but it provides me with some serious relief.

It's rained all week. Hopefully, the sun will show her pretty face soon.

Thursday, May 21, 2009


Last night, I was fortunate enough to be amongst 18 dynamic women-artists who were selected to receive the Leeway Foundation Art and Change Grant, myself included. Being in their presence was so liberating, inspiring, and just overall awesome. I was able to share my project, Raising Hasana, blog to come, where I interview parents raising African American children with ADHD and compile that information book and that my fellow grantees were very interested in the project. It also made me realize that I'd better start interviewing and writing!

Monday, January 5, 2009

Models of Leadership: Raw and Explicit Version

OK, we're on the heels of the inauguration of our first African American president. In my last entry, it was the day before. Today, is several months afterwards. Needless to say, I'm very happy and hopeful about this presidency and 2009 for that matter. What I want to talk about today is female leadership, particularly female leadership in politics. I can only discuss and attempt to analyze what I am most familiar with so, for all intents and purpose (something that my professor at Temple often prefaced with his lectures), these are empirical observations.

It seems to me that there is a distinct difference between being tough and being a bitch. Sorry for those women activists who think this is a slight. Anyway, often I see women (and men) try to be tough, but instead come of as being a bitch. That is, leadership marked by a narcissism and fear that engenders a pettiness and passive aggressive (punk-bitch) retributive style of correction i.e. punishment. That is, if you do something to me (anything at all, nothing that threatens one's power in a real sense, but something that one perceives to threaten one's power), I will do something back to hurt you. By no means do I believe that one should sit idly by if one is being attacked. But the nature of one's response is a key factor in determining one's leadership style.

I think women often often try to be tough, but actually come of being a bit bitchy. Men do this too. Being tough means providing a response to a threat or attack without taking a "dig" --that extra step that says don't f**** with me, if you do, I will with you. I think the tough approach is more so if you f**** with me, I will protect myself and will create an offensive strategy for you and you action, if deemed necessary, will be corrected. The punk-bitch and bitch style are always defensive. Passive aggressive responses to attacks and subtle responses are different. It is fine to let folks know your power, but you don't necessary have to usurp another's power at the first sign of aggressive or to retain your own. Some folks recognize subtleties. Passive aggression sends the wrong message and just pisses people off. Punishment scares folks and pisses them off. Those that are scared are not empowered and those that are pissed off---well that's a whole nother animal i.e. the Middle East before and after the US invasion of Iraq. Correction is the best policy. One's response to an attack---if you must respond and you always should either directly to or building an offensive--must be corrective. So, being tough means being corrective and standing your ground when it comes to your ideas when it comes to attacks. It doesn't mean punishment or, at least, I don't think it should.

Monday, November 3, 2008

The Day before The Day and Night!

Today is November 3, the day before the election. Democrats hope (and are expected) to pick up seats in the House of Representatives as well as the Senate and the, dat dat da daw, the all important seat--the presidency. We all need to Get Out and Vote, for all of this to happen. I went to a GOTV breakfast for Obama this weekend hosted by Congressman Fattah, Senator Hughes, Councilwoman Reynolds Brown and our newest Councilman, Curtis Jones, Jr. It was well attended--about 500 people I think. And we are were geared up. Sheryl Lee Ralph, Vinnie's wife, gave a rousing speech talking about how she voted early in LA. It was a good time. We had a very busy Saturday, Trey started basketball, I had a campaign meeting, and our dog Titan, graduated from his obedience class. That night, my sister-in-laws came by for a drinkey drinkey. At every stop, the topic of conversation was Barack Obama and his campaign. I have to admit, we get some insider info. I have friends who are surrogates who've met him on more that one occasion and get backstage access. So I hear how much work has gone into getting where "we" are. I just want everyone to Get out and Vote tomorrow so that we can begin transforming this country. I'm putting out my flag today and will be wearing my red, white and blue earring tomorrow. Hass has a red, white, and blue bracelet and Trey will be wearing his Obama T-Shirt. Last week, it was Go Phillies. Today it is Go Obama!! I'm sure we'll be up all night!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Mavericks or Intellectual Exterminators

As you may may have noticed in my last entry, I think a United States led by the McCain/Palin Mavericks will be a bleak place to live for anyone who has been encouraged to think on his or her own. The notion that being a "smart" or "intellectual" person is a bad thing, to me, wreaks of pre-Stalin Russia, pre-Hitler Germany, and every other country changed by paranoid extremists. Soon after entering office, each of these administrations adopted an anti-intellectual policy. After these so called mavericks took over, doctors, lawyers, artists, philosophers--anyone with an original thought--were targeted for extermination.

This is serious people. Look back at your history, especially people of African descent. Remember, being called an uppity black person in the not to distant past meant a visit from the local KKK chapter--and I don't mean Kappa, Kappa, Kappa.

McCain and Palin say they represent change, but so did the Khmer Rouge.